BUT

A REAL RELATIONSHIP

Has fights. Has trust. Has faith. Has tears. Has hurt. Has sweet smiles. Has genuine laughter. Has weird, stupid, unnecessary arguments. Has patience. Has communication. Has secrets. Has jealousy. And most importantly, love. This is all just a mess that turns out beautiful & an experience that can never be forgotten..

BUT

Today its been 1140 days since I know you. 30days as a friend. 900days as dramatic lover. 1 day letting you go and 209 love slowly fade away. Happy Anniversary 7months Moving on. :p

JADI

siapa kata kalau dua insan yg sedang bercinta AKAN bertemu bahagia? dan tak semestinya pasangan kekasih akan berkahwin. walaupun semua kemanisan itu ada, 'tetapi' ada dimana mana. Dia tak benarkan kita bersama. sebab Dia ada perancangan yg lebih baik untuk kita. 

                                                       

long way to go. ALWAYS AND EVERYDAY

Mandatori : Case closed

okay relek relek tawan tawan, title entry kali ni mcm suspen je kann. haha. i just finished reading novel, Mandatori by Ramlee Awang Murshid. okay tahu dah mcm budak sekolah kan baca novel? so whattttt? I'm bored to death bila sem break. what else to do then? eh eh lupa pulak nak share, today i wake up at 11am. haha isn't it cool? kurang terasa keloseran. selalu pukul 2 bru bangun. ish ish ish! hari ni hari jujur sedunia kotttt? aku dah lama tak baca novel actually. ntah mana novel2 aku semua. ade yg pinjam terus lesap. bagi kucing makan agaknye. yang ayah buang banyak jugak. ini paling cool sekali, saboooo jelah. novel Mandatori ni aku dh penah baca tp dh ingat2 lupe jln cerita. so aku baca balik. mcm biaselah, pengarang buku ni antara favorite aku. dia ni takde tulis cite2 cinta, semua nye action and thriller. ADAM (Aku Darah Anak Malaysia) is the best novel i ever have!! kisah seorang penembak tepat yg setia pada negara dan mencari perempuan yg pernah didermakan separuh hatinya ketika perempuan itu bayi. sumpah interesting cite nii. go grab one guys.

okay skrg ni aku bknlah nk cite psl Adam, tp cite Mandatori yg aku baru je hbs baca ni. kisah ni mengenai seorang lelaki yg perjalanan hidupnye penuh dgn dendam. lelaki ini satu jasad tapi ada 4 personality. satu, seorang pendendam (Amran), dua, seorang yg tamak (Bogart) tiga, seorang yg baik hati (Norman), last, seorang pembunuh (Carlos). ketiga2 org ni adalah org yg sama yg sering berperang dgn jiwa dan fikiran. bermula dgn dendam Amran yg tk boleh terima hakikat bapanya telah dianiaya sehingga membawa ke tali gantung. lps tu Amran hanyut kat laut dan dijumpai oleh lanun, Amran yg memory lost dibagi nama Bogart yg berpersonaliti tamak. lepas tu muncul jiwa yg baik hati dlm diri dia dan last sekali datang pula jiwa pembunuh bila die cari balik semua org2 yg aniaya bpk dia. semua watak ni kita dpt tahu ada dlm satu jasad kat penghujung cerita nii. i was like.."oohhh patutt laaaaa.." haha.. cerita ni mmg buat kita asyik memikir je. the best part is, bila dia jd Carlos, macho gila okayy! sebelum dia membunuh, dia akan cakap "aku adalah tunggak keadilan dan setiap kesalahan hanya mempunyai satu hukuman saja iaitu hukuman mati mandatori". bila dah mati dia akan cakap "case closed!". hahahaha.. machoo gile kann! :) Carlos memburu org yg betol2 melakukan kejahatan yg tak dpt diadili mengikut undang2. jadi dia jatuhkan hukuman ikut undang2 die sndri.

panjang pulak aku bercerita. hahaha. tp seriously cite ni interesting. no regret if you read em'. sekarang ni aku nk carik balik novel Adam tu. ntah mana tah hilang. hopefully jumpa lah nanti. rindu Haikal sharp shooter yg hensem. hihihihihi.. okay melerett! dah kbai.

hidden truth

okay I copy this from LC. just for fun. :)
NAME: NOR HAYATI BT HASHIM

AGE: 21

BIRTHDATE: 2ND JUNE 1990

PRESENT ADDRESS: TAMAN  PUTRA JAYA. SHAH ALAM.

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. last beverage = teh o suam

2. last phone call = ApizGambala just called me 2minutes ago. :)

3. last text message = it was my couzie, Wanie.

4. last song you listened to = Ana Raffali- dan ku biarkan kau terlepas

5. last time you cried = on my birthday 3weeks ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice = no

7. been cheated on = yes

8. kissed someone & regretted = yes!! stupidest mistake in life!!! ┌П┐(◣_◢)┌П┐

9. lost someone special = yeah 7month ago

10. been depressed = this should not be a question. haha. ofcourse! 

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

11. white

12. pink

13. black

LAST YEAR (2010), HAVE YOU:

14. Made a new friend = I'm not sure

15. Fallen in love = Yes with the same person since 2009

16. Laughed until you cried = yes

17. Met someone who changed you = no i changed by myself

18. Found out who your true friends were = surprisingly yes

19. Found out someone was talking about you = yes, mental sorang2

20. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = yes

GENERAL:

21. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = 60%

22. Do you have any pets = yahh! can't live without Sid, orange cat. 

23. Do you want to change your name = no but my nickname yes! 

24. What did you do for your last birthday = attending surprise bbq for me. :)

25. What time did you wake up today = 1.25pm

26. What were you doing at midnight last night = watching movie stored in my lappy

27. Name something you CANNOT wait for = another 4years from now. I'll keep it secret. hihi

28. Last time you saw your Mother= 30minutes ago. we eat manggis together. yeah alot!

29. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = emotional management! i failed. 

30. What are you listening to right now = Big Time Rush ft Snoop Dog- Boyfriend

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = no

32. What's getting on your nerves right now = not gonna miss watch Transformers

33. Most visited webpage = Facebook, Twitter,Tumblr and Blogspot.

34. Nickname =  Atie (family), Yayangg (Uniselianss), Nyot (some people who closed to me)

35. Relationship Status = single and not searching

36. Zodiac sign = Gemini

37. Male or Female = Female

38. Elementary = SK Bandar Baru Seri Petaling

39. High School = SMK Bukit Jalil

40. College = Universiti Selangor

41. Hair color = coffee brown

42. Long or short = medium

43. Height = 165cm

44. Do you have a crush on someone? = u mean now? NO

45. What do you like about yourself? = Chinese look. lol 

46. Tattoos = NO, sakit.

47. Righty or lefty = Righty

FIRSTS:

48. First surgery = eye

49. First piercing = 12yo

50. First best friend = if TRUE best friend, it was Jia Shamsuri.

51. First sport you joined = long jump

52. First vacation = somewhere but only in Malaysia

53. First pair of trainers = can't remember

RIGHT NOW:

54. Eating = no

55. Drinking = no

56. I'm about to = drive thru Mcd

57. Listening to = Enya- Only Time

58. Waiting for = Transformers on 29june

YOUR FUTURE:

59. Want kids? = twins!

60. Get Married? = 26

61. Career? = I'm trying hard for it.

WHICH IS BETTER:

62. Lips or eyes = my sepet eyes ofcourse. soalan ape nii? haha

63. Hugs or kisses = both

64. Shorter or taller = Taller

65. Older or Younger = Older

66. Romantic or spontaneous = romantic

67. Nice stomach or nice arms = stomach

68. Sensitive or loud = both depends on situation

69. Hook-up or relationship = relationship 

70. Trouble maker or hesitant = trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER:

71. Kissed a stranger = no

72. Lost glasses/contacts = not yet

73. Sex on first date = I'm still virgin

74. Broke someone's heart = yeah and regretted whole life.

75. Had your own heart broken = happy 7month moving on anniversary 

76. Been arrested = once. haha.. shaiittt!

77. Turned someone down = yes but i don't meant it

78. Cried when someone died = imma human, so yes

79. Fallen for a friend = best friend actually. 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

80. Yourself = the most

81. Miracles = yes

82. Love at first sight = only if i met Chad face to face

83. Heaven = Yes

84. Santa Claus = hotak hang! 

85. Kiss on the first date = not really. 

86. Angels = yes

87. Karmas = i always believe in karma. 

btw, i added question number 87. okay, i won't tagg any of you guys. siapa yang nak buat, you know what to do then. have fun! thanks to LC for sharing. 

tidak semua peluang bertemu manisnya

kita selalu aja dengar apa orang kata "everyone deserve a second chance". bagi aku, penerimaan sesuatu benda, baik kebaikan ataupun keburukan adalah berbeza. and we can't expect people. sometimes expectation is good, but the high one could kill us. kehendak dan kemahuan manusia kita tak boleh nak jangka. ada yg berubah mengikut akal yg logik, ade jugak yg lebih selesa melayan karenah2 emosi. bezanya melampau ataupun tidak, kita sendiri yang kawal. bukan orang lain. bukan sesiapa. kadang kala kita boleh mengelak, tapi saja hendak merasa. merasa apa, kita sendiri pon tak faham. siapa yang boleh baca? siapa yg tahu apa kita rasa bila hati sendiri tak tahu apa yg kita hendak. memang takde sesiapa yg dpt baca. aku rasa inilah kegagalan yg paling memalukan bila kita tak boleh nak mengawal diri sendiri apatah lagi sang hati yg paling mengenali diri kita sendiri. jadi, belajar belajar dan belajar utk mengawal sesuatu emosi dan situasi. pengalaman adalah guru tercinta yg tak pernah jemu utk mengajar kita.

back to the topic, siapa yang layak dapat peluang kedua? bagi aku semua org layak dapat peluang ni. tapi malangnya, bukan semua org sanggup utk memberi. dan paling kasihan kepada org2 yang menungu utk diberi peluang kedua yg juga tak dpt merasa satu perasaan utk menghargai peluang itu. bagi aku, peluang kedua adalah satu penghargaan yg tak ternilai dan tidak mungkin kita akan sia siakan. mungkin disiakan bagi org yg buta erti betapa besarnya makna peluang itu. yang boleh mengubah hidup seseorang, yang boleh mengejar kebahagiaan, yang boleh menyatukan hati dan paling penting, yang boleh mengubah diri sendiri. itulah PELUANG yang paling bermakna. apa2pun, itu semua terserah kepada hak masing2. sama ada memberi itu akan menuju kebaikan ataupun keburukan. manusia semakin bijak berfikir, cuma kelihatan bodoh bila manusia tidak reti membuat keputusan. orang yg memberi dan diberi adalah dua insan yg bertuah kerana tidak lalai dan masih mengambil berat utk menyelesaikan sesuatu perkara. mereka ada rasa itu. tapi ingat, peluang itu tidak semestinya berjaya.

aku sendiri pernah merasa peluang itu. peluang kedua yg aku gunakan sebaik mungkin utk menebus kesilapan lalu walaupun pada mulanya dia pernah ckp dkt aku dulu, bagi dia, peluang kedua itu tak pernah ada dlm hidup and dia tak pernah bagi peluang kedua dkt sapa2. lama lama, dia bagi juga peluang itu. sbb apa? dia aja yang tahu. aku cuba utk pulihkan kembali segalanya. dia pon mencuba utk kembalikan apa yang kami ada dulu. mungkin tidak mahu kemanisan hubungan yg bermula dr seorang sahabat hilang begitu sahaja. tapi rasa dulu tak mungkin sama lagi. jadi aku lepaskan. sperti yg aku cakap td, tidak semua peluang bertemu manisnya. sekurang2 kita cuba dan diberi peluang utk diperbaiki. jika tidak menjadi, itu adalah kerja yang Maha Esa. aku bertuah sbb pernah merasai perasaan itu dan aku rasa aku adalah perempuan pertama yang dia beri peluang kedua. terima kasih :)

jangan terlalu menghukum seseorang. semua org pernah buat silap. tidak susah utk memberi peluang kepada yang layak. matangkan fikiran, lapangkan dada, fikirkan....... layak ke seseorang itu diberi peluang kedua.. hanya diri sndri yg lebih mengenali betol tak? jadi...berilah peluang kedua dan gunakan sebaiknya. penyesalan kesalahan lalu pastinya ckup memberi pengajaran. (tertakluk kpd sifat seseorang) hahahaahahaha.. kbai

thank you for the precious present

hari ni bangun pukul 11.00... entah kenapa aku rasa mlm semalam malam yg aku paling buas tido. aku bangun2 je td semua bantal jatuh dr katil. semua okay? 1st time mcm nii. aduuhh tak sleeping beauty lah semalam. hehehe.nasib hp tak jatuh sekali. aku pon tak tahu lah semalam aku ngigau ape dol. bertukar transformer agaknya. 

otey hari ni aku nk update pasal present2 yang aku dpt tahun nii. ade yg dpt advance, ade yg dpt lambat. tapi aku bkn kesah pon lambat ke cepat ke. even tak bangi pon takpe sbb aku dh besar kan. :p okay the 1st present yg aku dpt is from Mak, mak bagi awal, sgt advance uoollllss.tp apa dia biarlah menjadi rahsia hati beta but it cost about 2thousand. heeee..thank you mak. then, the 1st present on my birthday is from jia, thank you i like it so muchh! teringat pulak masa aku pakai baju yg kau bg tu pastu dlm kete tu aku tersengih2 sambil pandang kau, kau tak perasan langsung! pastu boleh ckp lagi "kau kenapa gileee sengih2 mcm nii.." :(( sedih kene sound. padahal nk tunjuk iteww ukeww baju tuu.. :p haha. then, Apiz bought me something from Paris, thank you braahhh! tahu tahu je taste aku. :) then present Kak Lieza is from Bandung. not forget to Khairul Nizam, thanks for the purse! damn i like it so much, also for the cake. To Ayu and Nadu, thank you for the dress and handbeg. woooaahhhh! nnt aku pakai bila kita keluar otey. :) and the rest of my family, Pidos, Aju, my beloved sistah Nina, Ayah for the mooneeyyhhhh! THANK YOU ALL, MUCH APPRECIATED! with love, Atie Tunin, Yayangg, anak ayah dgn mak, adik abg2 dan kakak. :p

ini dari 3 hero aku, 3H stands for Haziq, Hazim, Harizs

oh terlupa pulak to those who make a call to wish, its Muhammad Iqbal which is the 1st person. tepat pukul 12.00. dia abang angkat aku dah 12tahun. :) 2nd was Fendy Julien, aduuhhh ade mende yg buat aku maluu time nii! ssshhhh keep it low okey. haha :p 3rd is Kamil Haziq yg janji nak belanja chillis :) okay semua lelaki kann! haha. okay thanks semua! yg wish sms and bbm pon! thanksss!

p/s : you gave me your "silenceness" on my birthday. if you really appreciate me as your friend (as you said to me before), and you remember how hard i tried to make things special on your birthday before,  you'll at least leave me some word on my happiest day. true color have shown, i was wrong about you. :)

thank you for the precious present..

Suprise BBQ on 2nd June 2011

oh hello tawan tawan. seperti yang aku janjikan, banyaknya cerita yg nk dikongsi dgn korg semua. again, sorry for the "silenceness" as i've been sooooo busy lately. especially struggle for finals. so dewm lepu! duhhh.. :p okay rasanya mcm klaka bila baru nk update pasal my sweet 21st birthday, but then its okay. gelak gelak dulu, kang kena kang. haha.. lets begin.....................................

alalalaala tgk muka birthday girl menanesss..hiks!

actually aku ada tweet yg this year is the worse birthday that i had. but its only at the beginning when i cried that morning. duhh..pagi pagi birthday girl dah menaness daahhh..haha. SEBAB, bila family abang aku tak dapat join family bbq as he needs to balik Kedah on that day. benda ni aku dah tahu lama btw. then pagi tu pulak, sayang aku Jia tersalah faham dgn ape yg aku ckp. dia ingat bbq tu cancel sbb family abg aku tade and she decided to go back to hometown Jerantut with her sister. haa yg ni la yg aku menangis pagi2 tu. huhuhu.. aku tak marah pon Jia, sikit pon tak marah, tapi hati ni tak boleh nk sorok rasa sedih yg teramatttt sgt. BUT,  my impression on that morning was totally wrong yah! i guess i forgot the other ohsem friend of mine out there. taaaaraaaaa!! they make a surprise bbq for me!! hihihihi.. 

sumpah aku tak jangka. about at 9 fara tetiba ajak lepak, tapi aku dah rasa pelik sikit dh sebab dia call aku, die ckp die dh ade kt bwh umah aku. ehh selalu aku yg tggu bwh umah die. yang lagi pelikkknye, bila aku turun dia tak bg aku bwk kete. Cinta Sayang tu mmglah dekat je tp aku mmg tak jalan kaki la sbb nnt aku nk balik sorg, aku boring. haha. okay tgh jln tu tetiba ada tangan yg menutup mata aku dr blkng. haha.. its wan nash my lovely buddy! so then kitorg lepak dekat 'smart kitchen' so called Dapur Pintar. haha.. tak jadi lpk cinta sayang, tak sukaa! :p borak punye borak, bdk dua ekor si fara dgn wan ajak gi jln2 naik kereta pulak dh. aku layankan aje. dh mcm bapak bwk anak2 tgk kawasan dh. haha. then kitorg benti dkt mcd section2 sbb aku nk terkencieenn jap. haa kat sini lah dorg tetiba tutup mata aku dgn kain hitam. pening aku dlm kete tu.fara duk asik marah aku sbb mulut aku asik bising je. mauuu tak memekak aku dlm kete tuu.. haha.. bila dh sampai destinasi, dorg pgg aku and bwk aku sampai satu tempat, pastu dorg lepas kan aku. ni kongg ajaa ni sape punye idea. pastu ade lak yg cuit2..haha.. then aku bkk kain hitam, surpriseeeeee! diorang nanyi ramai2 lagu birthday. demmitt! aku menangis lagi. mmg tahun ni tahun hari lahir menangis aku rasa. lol.

okay to all my beloved buddies, Jia, Faa, Farris, Arep, Wan Nash, Fara, Marry, Tuyai.. you guys are ohsem. thank you for make this happened. i love you guys. and i would say that this year is the best and greatest birthday ever!! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME AND MY SISTER NINASABRINA HASHIM. 

THANK YOU ALL. 

p/s: sorry quality gamba tak memuaskan dan malas nak edit. hihihihi.. 

do this entry should need a little?

hello semua. ehem ehem. lamanye tak update. okay been busy lately nii. final exam is just around the corner. and to be true, ain't ready fer this. haha. sekejap je rasa short sem. aku dah boleh rasa pointer akan jatuh. adehh. tp takpe I'll try my best to catch up back. so..since i've loads of things to do, im gonna update you very soon, hmm i mean after final. haha. byk benda yg nk diupdate. bowling event, birthday forevermore 21, the tears on birthday, family bbq, the fight with stupido bitches. and and and... just wait okay. hihihihi.. tungguuuuu..
catch ya latuuurrrrrr.. :)