what would you do when suddenly you think that you're totally a loner?
who don't have any close friends, bff and a boyfriend to support you and cheer you up.
to fill your heart with happiness, to laugh like an idiot together.
when suddenly you felt like the world is empty and black
no sounds of a bird, no smells of trees, rainless, and the only thing in your head is....am i that loser?
i really really really and really don't have the answer.
and i don't know how to create one.
because i have everything in my life
i have mak and ayah who never stop teach me just like 6yo little girl
i got friends which used to be my back bones.
laugh like a silly girl every second with em'
shares everything, they automatically appear when im down.
lend me their shoulders to cry on.
but yeah, i don't have any boyfriend.
apatah lagi scandals. bullshits.
am not even searching. i can live without em' seriously.
and single doesn't mean that you're a loser and loner.
some people have their own reason why they choose to be single.
so do i.
always and everyday.
i don't want to lose what i have now.
i feel grateful i got the chance to felt this kinda joyful feeling
so the loners out there, don't worry. the world never empty and black.
never. i was just saying.
you still can hear the sounds of birds because that's what ears functioning for,
you still can smell the fresh of the trees because God gives you the sense.
you still can feel the coldness of the rain because God want us to pray for grace.
whatever happened in your life now, bare in mind,
there must be reason.
be clever enough to decide which path you choose for your journey.
don't turn back even you are regretting for something.
long way to go, the light will always with you.
i've choose mine.
and i won't turn back.
my life ain't sucks. am not a loner. at all.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
okay hari ni mood ada sikit kacau, but its okay, put aside those bullshits now, cause there's a wonderful and precious moment that i ever had to share here. yeeehhaa!!! okay last week, ada yang dah tahu and ade yang still tak tahu yang aku and the whole class melunaskan project Intercultural dekat Cameron Highland.
WOWWW!!! seriously i feel something that i couldn't describe by myself. ohsem, marvelous,fabulous, fantastic, joyful, happiness!!! maigad, it was totally the best trip i ever had. i love the environment, the nature, the weather, people around us especially our foster families, they are very kind and sentiasa berikan kitorg yang terbaik. mak ayah angkat dkt sana tersangatlah baik, makan cukup dan sedap. bercerita itu ini, riuh sana sini and yesss i miss Cameron so much. i bet the whole class feels the same. we're just like the real family even dalam masa yg singkat, 3hari. bestnya kalau boleh duduk sana seminggu, lupakan sesak dan serabut bandar sekejap, itu baru betul puas. but what can we do kan? pergi sana bukannya pergi bercuti jalan lenggang. haha. oh actually kat sana kitorg ada byk activity sort of CSR macam mengaja kanak kanak tadika Kg Taman Sedia. at the first place, kitorg tak expect yg kanak2 sume tu sangat lahh suka dgn kedatangan kitorg. as fara said to me kan, baru je masuk gate tadika tu dorg dh dtg and cakap "akak, masuk lah masuklah cepat" and mcm nk tarik kitorg dh. memang jelas sgt nmpk kanak2 tu enjoy dan nakal nakal ye. hehe. teringat pula si Omar dgn Farris, maigodd pening kepala aku. haha.
on the 2nd day, kitorg pergi bersihkan kawasan kubur dgn surau dekat situ. boys akan pergi bersihkan kubur and girls bersihkan surau. activity ni aku tak in charge, so aku bangun lambat hari tu. hewhewhew. sedappp woo tido tejuk tejuk. :p lepas tu ade Cameron Tour. pergi minum teh, bee farm, rose farm, insect ape tah and byk lagi tempat. tak ingat pulak nama. then malam tu ada bbq and persembahan from each group. dah mcm ape dh malam tu. but it was fun seriously. then the 3rd day kitorg hiking Gunung Berembun, start hiking pukul 6pagi. feeuhh. aku rasa moment ni paling best sekali. yang tak rapat tetibe jadi rapat. bila fikir2 balik, rasa kelakar bila masa first2 hiking aku dgn geng jalan dlm kumpulan, kira hiking sekali la. bila dah lama sikit dah kt tgh2, sorang2 hilang. haha. tengok2 masing2 carik lelaki mintak tlg. sorg2 hilang tu tak sedar. dah susah pandai pulak carik laki mintak tlg kan. haha. nasib lah aku dgn apek, dah mmg kwn. yang lain2 tu sume nye tak brape rapat, tetibe mntk tlg. terus jadi rapat. haha. okay nak buat pengakuan jujur jap sekarang ni, kalau tak psl apek, mmg aku tak lepas nak naik gunung tu. SERIOUS. mmg ramai yg give up and sumpah aku rasa nk menangis ade satu part tu. apek lah yg byk tolong and finally aku antara yg awal jugaklah sampai puncak. kira tengah2. hahahaha. oh lupe, benda paling gampang sekali bila sorg jatuh, mmg teruk gila kena bahan, kena gelak kaw2 punye. gampang btol dak2 niii.
so i can say that i was totally enjoy this trip. i've learned so many things. lupa masalah sekejap. and thanks to the legend Sir Razlan yang hiking pakai sandals je. haha. sempoi suda. thank you so much sir and all friends and we are anak anak angkat Kg Tmn Sedia!! weeehuuuu! i miss Cameron, mak dengan ayah. love.