scariest thing about ayah..

hello... nothing special on 3rd Hari Raya.. ayah just arrived home after raya to Tuan Said's house and he bought me 2 large PizzaHut.. yummm..! btw, i just read about Datuk Sosilawati death.. very tragic and sympathatic! mari sama-sama kita sedekahkan alfatihah kepada arwah.. AL-FATIHAH...

okay, hari ni aku just nak berkongsi satu perasaan aneh yang aku sendiri tak tahu dan kenapa wujudnya perasaan tu.. perasaan yang aku sendiri tak tahu nak dipanggil apa..  its not about pizza or pembunuhan Datuk Sosilawati okay..hahaha.. maybe its about my future..ehem ehem tambah lagi satu word, future 'husband'.. huhuhu..

okay, on the 1st day Raya.. i saw ayah hugs my brother in-law, abg Zam...  dan aku tak tahu tiba-tiba hati aku terdetik.." ya Allah tak sabarnya nak tengok ayah peluk suami aku nanti.." oh..seriously it came naturally.. abg Zam la satu-satunya abg ipar aku and sebelum ni aku just ade kakak ipar dan aku tak penah la tgk adegan2 peluk memeluk neh kann..huhu.. mmg strange sgt feelings ni.. mcm over la pulak kan.. but its true, it happens! rase mcm zzzuuuuuuuppp...!! uuuiisshh... oh i wish uolss could feels the same! the only thing that i hope is ayah sempat peluk suami aku nanti... Amin.. i want to see it! with my eyes! the two person who complete my life hugging together.. and surprisingly, no one else i could imagine.. only him.. weeeeeee.....

the scariest thing in my life is when ayah doesn't like the man that i choose in my life.. oh please don't and hopefully not.. i know ayah better. he wont say anything as long as her daughter happy but i can see in his eyes. whether he like or not. his eyes doesn't lie to me. and for me, if ayah doesn't like, im sorry..i'll not go for it.. blessings from mak and ayah is very important. tapi mintak jauh laaa... the hardest part is ayah memang susah sangat nak suka orang.. i mean lelaki dan bakal-bakal.. maklumlah, orang tua pandai tengok.. huhuhuhu.. plus ayah bekas ASP.. and he knows when someone lie to him.. he knows everything.. huhuhu..

so kepada bakal2 tu, jgnlah nak tipu ayah saya ye.. kalau awak bercakap dan mata awak pandang ke kiri maknanye awak sedang menipu..hohoho.. kalau mata awak ke kanan maknanya awak sedang mengingati sesuatu atau sedang berfikir..hahaha.. byk lagi yang aku belajar tapi kongsi sikit2 boleh laaa...

back to the topic.. kalau ayah tak suka dengan pilihan aku, what can i do? mungkin aku akan carik jalan untuk ayah suka dia jugak..huhuhu.. tp kalau ayah tak suka, mesti ada sebabnya.. parents is always rite! tapi lelaki zaman sekarang mmg berbeza dgn lelaki zaman dulu. maksud aku, adab sopan dan hormat tuh still ade but tak sama dengan org dolu2.. okay benda yang paling aku tak suka bila lelaki tak reti nak hormat mak ayah aku.. datang amik aku kat umah tapi kalau ayah aku keluar, dia boleh duduk lak dlm kete sambil tunggu aku. oh dewm! ape salahnya turun kete kejap, salam and cakap nak pergi mana.. yedok? hahahah.. aku pulak yang rasa malu dgn mak ayah aku.. second, bila lelaki citer gebang dgn abg2 aku.. nak borak biarlah berpadan.. neh kalau nak duk berlagak dgn abg2 aku, aku pon rasa nak lempang.. kita kat umah owg kan.. ko nak hoha sane hohaa sini nak gi aneeee? hahaha.. third, aku tak suka bila lelaki takut2 or sorok2 when it cames about me.. hello, zaman dah berubah, mak ayah dah moden.. nak sorok2 buat ape lagih.. ingat ni zaman sekolah menengah ke..huhuhu.. next, janganlah jadi terlampau pemaluu.. kadang2 orang tua nak bergurau, tapi dia pulak diamm ajeeee.. tak ke kecik hati org tua tuh? huhuhu.. okay, dalam banyak2 lelaki yang aku kenal, abg angkat aku, Muhammad Iqbal Bin Abdul Rahman is the best guest! hahaha.. he know how to talk, to respect and dia sangat mudah mesra dgn ayah aku.. kalau fetch aku kat umah, dia akan cakap dgn ayah nak pergi mana suma.. and ayah akan pesan bwk kete elok2..  woooaahhhh!! i like it...  but dia sgt busy lately ni as UIA student so we haven't met for a long time but still contacting each other.. kalau nak tahu, dah genap 10 tahun aku jadi adik angkat dia.. lame gilaa.. well, his kinda good guy.. and the fact is, ayah like him..hahahaha.. Dah lah, nak compare byk2 pun tak guna, kalau kita dah syg yang itu, yang itu ajelah.. baik ke buruk ke.. yang itu juge lah yang kite syg...

p/s : congrates to my Jia sayang who have met the true one.. finally after 3 years i guess.. huhuhu.. semoga bahagia and may God bless you and him.. ily.. Abah will like him for sure! hahaha.  best nya kalau kita dapat lelaki yang kita nak jia.. macam awak...huhuhu... its okay, no matter what, i'll try my best until this december.. as long as u be my back bone eh syg..hahahah..