500 bucks gone

skrg pukul 2.43 ptg.. aku terfikir balik apa yg jadi pg tadi.... bukan kes curik ke ape eh, cume aku terlepas peluang nk dpt 500 bucks.. alkisahnya la kann, pagi pagi buta tadi around 7.30 kwn aku, Bebe call.. terkejot jugak la aku. dgn mate kecik2 aku angkat jugak fon tuh.. then,Bebe bagi aku job dekat Ampang Point for Chevrolet. 3 hari rm500 and payment on the spot. wuuhuuu..  actly mmg aku tgh carik duet utk bayar kelas intensif muet in about 300.. Bebe ni pulak mmg rajin buat event and join event and skrg ni die dh jadi manager. kire manager aku jugak laa.. die selalu bg aku job and one of it yg Modenas under Astro kat Johor baru2 ni. but sekarang, aku dh amek job sgt sbb kelas dh start. so weekend je aku amek. ok sambung balik pasal job td, aku sebenanye mmg nak sgt tp rase mcm so suddenly ditambah pulak dgn aku mamai lg.. itu antara sebab luaran.hahahhah.. sebab dalaman nye pulak bila aku tiba2 teringat ayat 'dia' semalam....

Flasback

 

aku : hissshh banyak je job skrg.. (bila aku tgk bebe wall byk job kat wall FB die) tangan i ni mcm dah gatal2 je nak pegang duit balik..

'dia' : blajar larh..haha

itu aja ayat die sebenanye..hahahha.. mmg simple sgt ayat tu. tapi aku tahu walaupun ayat tu simple and siap ade 'haha' lagi kat ujung tuh, aku tahu die tak nak aku terlalu obses dgn keje+duit since aku dah final sem skrg ni.. :) haaaa ni la sbb dalaman yg aku tolak job tu.. plus mmg aku tak ready pape pon. suddenly sgt. 

ok skrg ni aku bukanlah menyesal sbb tak amek job tu.. alahai..byk je lg job akan datang..  cuma, satu je aku nak cakap sekarang ni, "bestnya kalau 'dia' tahu benda ni.." :) sebab apa aja yg dtg dr mulut dia adalah sgt penting bg aku..

cool

according to Wikipedia, the sum and substance of cool is a self-conscious aplomb in overall behavior, which entails a set of specific behavioral characteristics that is firmly anchored in symbology, a set of discernible bodily movements, postures, facial expressions and voice modulations that are acquired and take on strategic social value within the peer context. Cool has been used to describe a general state of well-being, a transcendent, internal peace and serenity. It can also refer to an absence of conflict, a state of harmony and balance.


ok hari ni nak cerita pasal sifat 'cool' yang ada dalam diri seseorang. perlu ke sifat cool ni? penting ke? berguna ke? ok bagi aku, menda2 mcm ni org salu terlepas pandang. penting ke bagi korg aku tak tahu, tp yg semestinya agak penting bg aku (walaupun aku sndri tak brape cool, tp tak teruk sgt la kann..) kenapa aku ckp penting? SEBAB attitude seseorang tu lah yg menggambarkan sifat sebenar individu tu. aku rasa benda ni perlu ada di tengah-tengah. cool mesti kena ada. BUT cool sangat pon tak boleh. maybe korg ada experience berhadapan dgn golongan kedua2 ni. tidak cool dan tersangat cool. bahaya doooo... 


same as me, aku pernah berhadapan dgn dua golongan ni. bukan niat nak buat comparison ke ape, tp autimatically aku akan compare sifat kedua2 org ni. org yg tak cool langsung ni sangat2 payah dan kadang2 boleh bertukar jadi rimas. selalunya org yg tak cool ni sentiasa cuba utk tunjuk yg die sgt cool and could handle everything but the truth is they're absolutely NOT. usually bila berlaku konflik atau apa2 situation yg tak menyenangkan, they will provoke and protes dlm diam dan akan melibatkan orang2 yang terdekat (selalunya kwn rapat) utk berkongsi 'konflik' dgn mgunakan kiasan2 tertentu. the worth part is, when they dont know that we have detect this such of behavior that they have and they keep doing the same thing.


cerita pasal org yg terlalu cool pulak. bagus ke tak bagus? heheheh... bagi aku terlalu cool pon tak ok jugak. apa yg aku nampak, org cool ni sangat2 ego. selalunya they will act like they dont care, tapi sebenanye mereka2 ni sgt risau dan sgt ambil tahu. cuma dorg ni tak tunjuk. eh ni dah mcm bajet cool la pulak kannn..hahahaha.. ok, selalunya dorg ni tak tunjuk yg dorg ambil berat tentang sesuatu perkara padahal dorg ni lah antara org yg bijak berfikir dan boleh handle sesuatu perkara dgn mudah. golongan ni jugak langsung tak amek peduli ape org ckp psl dorg tak kire baik atau buruk. ok, yg ni the best part. yg tak bestnya pulak, bila malangnya org sekeliling especially org terdekat yg tak dapat tangkap sifat dorg neh dan otomatik dorg takkan paham. biasanya benda ni terjadi bila kat alam bercinta. mcm yg aku ckp td, mostly dorg tak suka tunjuk yg dorg amek berat tentang sesuatu perkara (tak semua) and org lain (pasangan ke ape ke) mula syak menda bukan2 dan mula rasa tak dihargai or whatelse. TAPI bukan setiap masa dorg mcm ni ok.. bukanlah aku ckp org terlalu cool ni keras mcm batu. bukan setiap masa dorg mcm ni sbb kdg2 dorg akan terfikir jugak untuk membahagiakan org yg dorg syg.. tak susah nak bahagiakan org yg kita syg.. tak salah untuk tunjuk. cuma sifat tu tak boleh nak lari. tak perlu nak cool sgt setiap masa. yang paling penting, kite kene tahu sifat dorg ni. sesape yg tak dpt terima coolness dorg ni, belajar2 la terima yeh..


p/s: semua ni berdasarkan penilaian aku aje. semua org ade pendapat masing2. take it or leave it. wahahahaahah..

pilih salah satu : Nomad, Sebastian, atau Torres ?

eh giler ape nk kene pilih..heesshh..hahaha tp tapelah, sy pilih Nomad.. :)

mientras que la cuestion no es molesto

forehead kiss

hah pelik ajekaann title entry neh mcm tade kene ngene..hahhahah

ok honestly, cerita ni makin lama makin SLOW.. bagi aku, yg 1st yang paling best skali. then kuar new moon mcm boring sikit.. and now Eclipse rase macam lagi slow. yang buat aku nak tgk sebab aku nak tahu sambungan cerite vampire hensem neh..hehehe..

lagi kesian kat famee dgn mira yang tak tgk num 1 dgn 2.. mati kutu dorg.. famee sempat kuar isap rokok and  sempat lagi borak dgn pokcik mane tah kat luar..hahhaha..

so, aku jia dgn wan ajelaaa yg semangat.. BUT... twilight kali ni ade unsur klaka. serius!! korg pi la tgk..hehehe.. mmg gelak lah dlm cinema tuh..

hmmm..mcm biase, aku kalau tgk wayang mmg tak sah klu tade gangguan. entah acik mane tah yg bejak bwk anak kecik dlm wyg tuh..heeesshhhh..

p/s : teringat bila jia tiba2 bisik kat tinge aku.. "aku tak tahu napa aku rase lelaki kiss kat forehead lagi sweet dr kiss kat mulot..." hehehehe..saaayaangggg, absolutely rite! TAPI... dua2 ade maksud yang berbeza.. hihihihihi..... klu aku, aku nak dua2.. :)

ok, sekarang dah tahu nape title entry aku mcm tu? hehehhee..saje jeee punn..:)

tanya sama pokok, apa sebab goyang.. meh aku jawab!

sejak akhir-akhir ni entry aku asik pasal romance, love, love , love! ahaaaaa..menyampah kaannn? aku pon dh naik menyampah sebenanye..tgk background baru aku ponn dah jd gamba org ciom bagai..hahaha.. ok hari ni nak citer psl FB.. sejak aku deactivate FB aku, aku rase aku dh tak perlu bace mende2 menyakitkan hati. walaupun ko rase mende tu kecik kuman pon.. aku mmg sensitif.. pergi mampos laa.. tp aku tak tahu sampai bila aku boley hidup tanpa fb..hahahhaah.. lepak lah dlu, penaaattt sgt dh.. tp bile aku pikir balik, ade byk faedah gak aku deactivate fb ni.. 1st skali, kau boley wall sape2 yg kau sukee dgn memanggil dia 'sayaaangg' sesuka hati.. 2nd, aku tak lah current bile nampak wall2 mcm tu.. :) 3rd, assg cepat je siap.. (betol ni tak tipuuu..) 4. aku berjaya habiskan semua season One Tree Hill walaupun aku rase aku ketinggalan.. 5. aku dah belajar tidur awal..(kalau tak lepak dgn hantu's laaa) 6. dah kurang memaki depan laptop. last skali, ko boley buat ape ko suke dgn TIDAK perlu menjaga hati aku lagi... sbb aku pon dh pencen jadi stalker ko..ekekekeke..

p/s : menjaga hati org tu penting..tak kira family, kawan, sahabat, lecturer, kereta, kunci rumah, acik kau and the most a Lover..walaupun kau ade hak untuk buat apa yg kau suka.. kite sama-sama tahu situation, kau tahu apa effectnye.. so tak susah kaann? perlu ke mende tu sumee? tapi.......dun worry, i ok jeeeee... :)

aku tahu ayat atas tu tibe-tibe sgt.. layan je..
LATER..

What music are you listening to today?

orchestra metal- nightwish

mientras que la cuestion no es molesto

someone special named A**F..

thank you for being there, through every laugh, through every tears. you helped me not to be scared about the things that i feared. thank you for the love that you have shown. from time to time you always listened. you never put me down and letting me be who i want to be. thank you for your friendship and your love. i do like you but i can't return everything that you have given to me because my heart is just for him. still i want to say you something. thanks for being there for me!!! 
you probably don’t know… how GRATEFUL I am, to know you.. there’s one thing i want you to know….i am always here for you, whenever you need a friend..  i want to say..that someday…soon…

you gonna miss me…..and so do i.. 

"der..pasni tade sape nak lempang aku lagi..hohoho"

you..thanks for everything... i tak tahu apa nak jadi lepas ni.. i tak boleh nak predict future.. but then, if i could re-live one more time, i want you to be the first person to approach me and the love might be in my heart.. :)

yes you are my PrincetonGirl =) do you want to punch Fiona at her face?

ofcosss!! tolonglah buat kann.. tp tape, semua harta dh jadi milik saya..and we live happily ever after..weehuuuu..

tanya sampai lebam

Do you want to go to Princeton College with me?

ofcos i will.. because im ur Princetongirl.. :) is it true Nomad?

tanya sampai lebam

l.o.v.e letter

i was assigned to make a love letter by Mr Hasni for Effective Speaking subject last 2 days.. we need to ask for forgiveness and proposing to get married.. this is it... silent and read.. (sape gelak aku lempang..)

You...

            We have been friends in about 3 years and for the past 2 years i realized im in love with you. When the first time we met, i never  thought i would feel this way. It came naturally. Every night i wish you appear in my dreams, until i wake up saying your name and i wish i could have you. The biggest mistake is i really dont know that you feels the same too. I was just too blind to see before and you make me so confused. Somedays you seem so close, but then the next day you seem so far. I really dont know and i make a mistake. I never blamed you at all because people make mistakes, so do i. Can you forgive me and please give a second chance? How are you going to forget all the moment that we spend together? Is it easy for you?

You are the one who wiped the tears before. You are the person who make me laugh when i really want to cry.  Yes, i really miss those midnight conversation. I miss when we were together when everything was fine. I always thinking back to those old and the precious memories of ours and it makes me trully happy. But i cried too. Somestimes i look at our picture and cry myself to sleep. I miss your 6 expression of your face. When you smile, when you hungry, when you bajet cool, when you dont know how to lie, and the best part when you are so jealousy. i miss the most when you called me ‘ceemok’. I want to hear that again. I miss everything! Siapa lagi nak ketuk kepala i bila i buat silap lepas ni? Siapa lagi nak selit-selit sampah dalam handbeg i? Siapa lagi nak tarik hidung i bila i menangis?

            

I menyesal sangat-sangat. You, i still ask for your forgiveness. Could you do me one last favor and give it to me? Im wishing and hoping that one day, you and i will be together again. So baby, please ask me, if i love you, and if my love is really true and i’ll tell you that you are the one who i want to marry to. Only you. Lets end this up and we begin a new life as a hubby and wifey. Bagilah i peluang untuk sayang mak ayah you sebagaimana i sayang mak ayah i and i want to be a part of your family. Lets get married. I am willing to wait for you, no others, only you. I love you 

take note : based on true story but some content is not true.. boley tak mcm tu? hahahaah..

there's some word yang direka-reka untuk mempoyokan cerita. ok bye.. 

                                                                                                                                                

goodbye but not forever

i started to cry. beginning to wonder, “why?” i have no where to go. no where to hide. i am screaming out. for someone to hear and hold me tight. wipe away my tears. it happened again. im scared. im mad. im sick. im tired. it hurts me when things go no right. in my heart, i carry the hope and you let me live. to love you is the best thing that i never regret. from a distance my heart is waiting for you. i am giving you space. only to find out if your love is true. if love meant to be, let our hearts find its way..

saying those word back! I LOVE YOU C..

goodbye but not forever

Who's the funniest person you know?

A

tanya sampai lebam

bile nak mandikan Moo ?

hahaha..belum sampai waktunyaa...

tanya sampai lebam

i called it "f.a.k.e"

i turned away and started to walk,
i was always there
when you needed me the most,
and now you don't care
you've shown me the real meaning,
life sometimes strange,
i once called you my best friend..


i guess people change! 


everything you do now is something you have chosen to do. Some people don't want to believe that. but if you're over age twenty, your life is what you're making of it. to change your life, you need to change your priorities.


............and now i called it "f.a.k.e"   :)

jom gaduh

ni dah kali ke berapa ko nak carik gaduh pon aku tak tahuu laa.. sumpah nafsu aku ni kalah dengan kau. kalau lawan lumba lari ke, lawan tangan ke boley la kot.. hahahah.. haaa ini diaaaa..

hati aku terpaut kat baju ni.. nampak lembut giler weh. lg pulak org kiuut mcm aku pakai en en en.. hohoho.. choice aku yg kaler grey ni.. uuusshh.. menusuk nusuk dada dh ni..haish.. haa ni lagi satu ajak bergadoh btol laa!!

lawa doh beg ni. haish..mengeluh tahap babi punyeh neh..hahahha sekali pandang je dh jatuh cinta. hahhahhha.. gelabah. meh meh sapa baik hati meh sedekah rm45 kat aku.. hhhahahhhah.. jasa mu akan dikenang. apa apa pun, one day aku nak beg ni jugak! lambat dengan cepat jee.. :) nak jugak nak jugak tak kire!

did i ever say thanks?

did i ever say thanks for all the toys you mended, games we played, outings to the park, and the way you always tried to cheer me when i was down? did i ever say thanks for the sacrifices you made, for working so hard to provide for our family? did i ever say thanks for having such faith in me and always being there when i needed you? 


AYAH, ILOVEYOU.. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING AND I ALWAYS NEED YOU


 "HAPPY FATHERS DAY.." :)


 -daddy's little girl

sesak dado den..

haih..semalam hari penuh memenatkan, merimaskan dan menyesakkan! 
kuar rumah kul 2.30 pick up the jiwa aku, Ayu.. then shoot pergi sha lam nak bank in duet register Unisel..
sampai je sane, aku tgk golap je.. laaaahaaaaii....tutop plak! bazir minyak aku btol.. baru teringat smlm hari sabtu.. ke aku yg dobo neh? hahahahaah..
ok pastu shoot pergi the curve.. jalan jalan lalaalallalala.. dgn hati yg penuh riang.. suddenly, MNG? ramainyee org? eh apehal ni? nk tanye lg padahal dh tahu ade sale.. kaki melangkah dgn senyuman yg magically appear..! skali ternmpk baju yg aku nak sgt tuh.. dlm bulan ni aje, setiap kali aku masuk mng mesti aku usha baju tu.. tp smlm aku tgk baju tu dh trun price sampai rm79 je doh! doh doh doh doh btol laaa! esshhh... gatal2 je tgn aku ni nak pakai duet register unisel. pinar2 je aku tgk rm300 dlm purse aku. haih! 


cerita si Ayu :
dgn tibe2 semput die dtg.. aku ingtkan die main2.. hadoi.. MNG punyeh pasal plus dh lame tak soping.. gini la jdnyee..hahahahha.. tgn die neh laju je taip msg.. katenye nk wat loan jangka pendek..hahahah... sanggup tu..


so penyudah die, aku tak beli ape2 pun kat MNG tuh.. :(
balik tak tahu nak lepak mane..alih2 pergi lepak kat bangsar cuci mate, release tention.. ekekekeke..

mulut kata lain, hati kata lain..

"suke hati aku la nak syg kau byk mane pun.. ko jgn la tanye-tanye.. yg penting, aku buat ko happy, ko buat aku happy..ok?"


awaakk... where does it go..?
 i realize one thing.. that i dont want u to feel the fuckin pain anymore.. im the one who just give u burden.. its just the begining.. byk lagi bende kat dpn kite.. but u dh pon sakit sgt sgt sgt..  its scaring me to think ahead.. cause everything is just too early.. u just dont want to fall in love again anymore, but u did!! u've already did... idk what to say.. im stuck and sick.. 

three dreaded words

"i don't want to admit it anymore.i don't want to speak those words.those three dreaded words"

but one of my frens cakap....

"saying those word is a challenge..theres nothing wrong if u try to admit..its better say something rather than doing nothing"

mulai hari ni, i dont think that those word can be called as a 'challenge'..! naahh... lepas kwn aku ckp mcm tu, aku ade terfikir balik. maybe aku boleh ungkap balik those three words.mungkin pada org lama, mungkin pada org yg lain, mungkin pada org baru dan mungkin juga pada org yg akan dtg..tapi.... hati  senang berubah kan? disokong dgn akal fikiran yg membuatkan kite berfikir. itu aku tak nafikan.kita senang berubah. akal mbuatkan kite berfikir dan boleh mengubah apepun. segala tindak tanduk, perasaan,hati dan paling penting apa yg kite inginkan dlm hidup...

dan hari ni jugalah fikiran aku berubah kembali untuk tidak akan ungkap balik 3 perkataan tu. " I LOVE YOU",

walaupun mungkin aku rase, aku simpan... simpan untuk yg lama..dan mungkin simpan untuk yg baru.. 



sings the tune without the words and never stops !

LATER..

bila cerite klaka jadi sedih la pulak..

haaihh..mcm2 pangai la aku ni bila tgk wyg.. last week bila citer sedih jadi cerite klaka. hari ni bila cerite klaka jd cerite sedih la pulak..hahahah.. bukan sedih apee.. masalahnye dan2 la pulak kan aku selsema teruk. air hidong asik nak leleh jee..dh mmg serupa org nangeh dh aku tgk haa..haaiishh kacau mood btol laaa.. yg si A plak asik bahan2 aku. konon aku menangis bila tgk part sedih.. ceett! "i selsema ok!!" hahahahah.. dikacau pulak dgn bunyi budak nangeh..perrghh time kaseh.. aku lempang satgi baru ade akal.. nasib bek skejap jee budak tu nanges..

ok, dr dlm kete lg kitorg tak tahu nak pergi tgk movie kat mana. kalau dh dua2 kata "ikot u larh.." cane?hahaha.. alih2 tak tahu nk pergi mana. A kate movie kat Mid tak best. aku pon form brape lak last tgk movie kat Mid.. hehehehhe.. last2 gi times square jugak.. masuk je ts, wooaahh..asal ramai org giler eyy.. pelik giler. padahal weekdays. last week pon tak ramai mcm ni. jgn tiket abes sudaaa.. mulot jgn nak masin sgt yee..mmg full pon!haddoiii laaaa... yg tggl front seat je. aaiihh berdarah gak tengkok aku der nnt..hahahahah..so tak jadi beli.. :(
tapi...............


A bwk aku tgk kat Capsquare mall.. jgn gelak klu aku ckp ni 1st time aku dgr mall tu. kesiaann enn..hihihhiih.. well not bad la tmpt diee.. kitorg sampai around 4.50pm.. tp tiket karate kid kul 5.00.. hmmm pakai slumber beradak jelaaa.. pewwoot ni dh bunyik2 dh ney..hahahaah..


overall, citer ni bg aku best giler.. thumbs up la aku bg..ending gile macho..hahahaha.. wlupon bdk tu kecik lagi.. Xiao Dre yg macho habess.. besa nnt konpem hensem.. hohoho.. wlupon 1st time Jaden Smith ni blakon tp kire hebat la aku rase.. jackie chan pulak mmg nmpk dh tua dh die..hehehe.. siaann je tgk..ape2 pun, sumpah tak rugi la tgk citer ni.. terbooeekk..!*wink wink.. (jgn nak suke sgt..ingat!!) hahahahahh  


ok habes je tgk, kitorg mkn kat Subway.. yumm yumm akhirnya!. sumpah lapa gilerr.. mkn kejap je sbb A ade futsal lak mlm tu.. so then kitorg teross chow.. dlm kete dgr lagu dangdut amelina. sekian...


another another wonderful wonderful day with you you.. thank you again again.. :)
mengantuk.ok, dah boley tido sekarang... gudnite blogers! LATER..

love chooses you

if u find urself in love with someone and the love return.. it still can happen that love chooses to leave..
dont try to reclaim it and do not asses any blame.. let it go.. despite the pain, there is a reason and meaning to this.. you cannot choose love by urself, LOVE CHOOSES YOU..


LATER..

jangan nak suke sgt

ini lah die org pompuan. baru bg harapan sket dh melonjak2 berguling bagai.. bkn main SERONOK!
tgk la 2-3 hari nnt, menangeh.. dh bese dh. rasenye mende2 mcm ni tak boley stop kot. sampai lah hati ni dh lebam, dh btol2 mcm batu baru rase nk stop. bkn tak nak, tp tak boleh. ingt hari2 hadap mende mcm ni best ke? klu time best, wwwaaaoooohhh...mcm syurgaaa! klu dtg part tak best.. esshhhh..!
bestnye kalau tak perlu nak rase bende2 mcm ni.. bestnye kalau hati ni happy je sentiase.. bestnye kalau tade org buat aku sedih.. KALAU,KALAU,KALAU! hidup ni kalau pakai KALAU, babi pon boley terbang..


so, start from today..jgn nak sukee sgt lah eh.. klu suke tu berpada2 lah. jgn nnt bile kau dh sakit balik, kau teringat hari2 yg kau suke, ini lah yg membuatkan kau akan rase lagi sakit. phm ke tak? org yg penah rase ape aku rase ni jela yg phm.. walaupun mcm ni, tp aku still rase nak tunggu ape yg nak jd lepas ni. itu yg pelik. hidup ni ade jatuh dan naiknya. kdg2 kita kat atas dan kdg2 kita kat bawah. tp skrg ni aku rase aku kat tengah2..
haa..caneh tuh? rase nak lari dr kelompok sakit ni sbb ade yg dtg nak bg cahaya baru kat aku. yg sentise ade untuk buat aku ketawa dan berfikir lebih jauh. tp hati ni masih kuat untuk yg lama........*sigh


sebelum tgn ni menaip mende2 merepek, baik aku stop duluh.. 
later.. 

cerite si Madu Madu

ok ni madu aku, intan payung, syg manje, busuk belacan sume die lah! name die Jia Shamsuri.. yg selalunye aku panggil dgn panggilan Sayang.. die ni org yg selalu berebut edward cullen dgn aku. sampai bergadoh dlm kelas semate2 nak tgk gamba edward dlm magazine. (bodoh kan?hahaha) sebok aje! semua yg aku nak, ko pon nak! gggrrrr..ok, lame kelamaan, aku dgn die dh boley terima hakikat dan kitorg boley terime kehadiran masing2.. (ini sumpah gelabah taik kuda) 

one day, tiba-tiba... die ni mcm terkena guna2 buatan org.. dh angau satu badan! bila aku cek punye cek, rupenyee 'cinta poyo' die dh beralih arah.. skrg ni gila Damon dgn Stefan pulak dah! haaiiihhh.. ngucapp syg..hahahah.. 

(ini name die diguna2...)

TAPIKANN.....bila aku tgk Damon dgn Stefan ni.. jantung aku pulak degup2 lain mcm.. hahahahaha..
ok syg jgn marah dlu.. skrg ni aku tak kesah ko nk jeles ke nk mengamuk ke nk heboh satu campus ke, i just
wanna say that i am fall in love with them too!!! ohhohohoho... taakkk kesshhhaaaa kaaaannn? kite kan saluu berkongsi-kongsi? releks ok? kite sambung lg episod madu2 kite ni... LOL

(oh demmit! nak jugaakkkk)p/s: aku dh dpt bygkan muke ko dh merah2 skrg ni.. but kesiaannn kau tak boley komen and tak berkesempatan nak memaki aku.. hik hik hik.. tape2, aku memberi haluan makian kau dkt FB aku..wahaahaahah.. 


imissyou syg! ilysm.. tak sbr nak bukak sem! OWEYS LOVE YOU.. :)

coming soon

light blue high waist

BMI shayeeee...

body type : standard

gender : female

age : 20

height : 160cm

weight : 45.6kg

bmi : 18.0

fat% : 21.6%

fat mass : 9.9kg

range : UNDER WEIGHT

desirable range

fat% : 17-24%

fat mass : 7.3-11.3kg

predicted weight : 44.7kg

predicted fat mass: 9.0kg

FAT TO LOSE : 0.9KG

aku ANOREXIA mcm ni kee? TIDAK kannnnn...??

hhahahhaaha.. berat aku dah turun 11kg.. before ni 56kg... haaaa sapaa mauu jawab?

bila cerite sedih jadi klaka..

farid farid farid... jgn nak hensem sgt pon boley jugak kan? rase nak sepak je muka kau. geraamm..balik rumah dh start berangan. bessttt nyeee klu dia jadi 'man' aku.. hik hik hik...

semalam mmg hari yg memenatkan. pukul 1.30 pg baru sampai rumah. nasib baik A yg pick up aku, klu tak mmg barai la kan aku nk drive balik sorg2.. so yesterday everything went well..

and im superbly happy..!

aku tak tahu faktor ape yg menarik aku tuk tgk cite ni. sbb aku mmg jarang tgk cite melayu kat wyg. tggu raya sudaa en? hihihihi.. tp cerite ni aku btol rase excited nak tgk. maybe sbb cerita ni adaptasi dr novel kot. mcm different sket la. and absolutely sbb pelakon2 dia. mmg ngam! overall, cerita ni aku boley katekan 'ok' laa..but then, cerite ni makin lama makin melereett..pas satu, satu.. well, cerite ni cerite sedih, tp klu aku dh gi tgk dgn org klaka, cerite sedih pon jd klaka..hahaha..(teringat pulak..haddooii) nk feeling pon tak jd.. tp ending dia mmg seriusly aku 'tangkap'.. view cerite ni pun sume cun. A pon ckp kaler citer ni canteekk.. :) yeaahh..

pas tgk citer ni kitorg gi mkn kat ampang jap pastu chow balik uma terooss.. dh pagi pulak time tu. dlm kete kitorg still borak psl cerite ni..teringat ade sorg pok cik tu sound "boleyy diamm tak?!" ooppss! hahaahahhaah.. and dan2 lak kuar lagu OST cerite ni kat sinar fm.. ok jgn gelak dlu..si A ni mmg suke dgr sinar mlm2 sbb suke dgr segmen luahan org2 yg kecewe kat sinar tu..

klaka gilerr.. bkn nk simpati, lg gelak ade laaa..haaddooii... ok sambung balik, aku dgn A try detect sape penyanyi lagu OST tuh.. mmg tak pnah dgr suara tu. sampai aku balik umah aku cek kat tenet.. rupenyeee Filianti Vlee yg mmg aku tak knal! hohohoh.. no wonder la tak dpt detect suara dia. tp lagu ni kena dgr lame2 baru best.. Bila Cinta by Filianti Vlee... ape lg? download laa.. :)

ok lastly, smlm sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt beesssshhh...walaupun hujan and kaki ku melecett! heheheh.. feeling of peace filled my heart. its such an amazing and wonderful day with you. thank you.. :)

:)

ini.ini.dan.ini.

PS: awaakkk..belikan saye ni?

skrg ni jwb btol2,nk A ke A ke A or Ayu? hahahaha

hhmm Ap dgn Ayu...hahahahahaahha..
ko mbls en...

tanya sampai lebam

forever after

bgun tido, cek hp ade 1 msg received..

A dah msg..then aku terus bangun siap siap mandi sume then terus pergi pick up A..

lepak minum2 jap dgn A and D..

then aku dgn A teruss shoot pergi BB.. jalan2, makan2 and saje tgk movie punyer list..

hhmmm..takde citer best.. ade pon tp sume A dh tgk..hahahah..

"tgk shrek nak?" hahahhaha..then A kate " i ikot jeee.."

pastu aku fikir cam mls jee..lg best klu jalan2.. huuhuhu.. then kitorg decide nk jln2 kat pavi..

but dewm! hujannnn... :(

A bwk aku ikot jln yg tak kene hujan.. pening jugak la aku pusing2.. heeeee..

then kitorg jejalang jap pastu benti jap kat GCS pavi..

last2 kitorg tgk gak citer shrek forever after.. hohohoho..baik tgk je dr td.. dah dua2 gedik takleh gak..hihihi

.

seriously best giler citer shrek ni.. romantik plus funny giler.. dgn donkey yg bangang nk mampos..hahahaah..

ok pas tgk, kitorg gi mkn kat NZ.. die drive. aku mls...hehehhheh.. mkn sampai nk muntah then hanta die balik. pastu aku pon balik. tido dgn senyum... :) heeeeee... amazing day!

p/s: forever after

at 20..

skrg ni dah pukul 12.07 am...

"happy birthday to me..happy birthday to me..

happy birthday to me..happy birthday to mee!!!"

weehuuu...mulai hari ni aku dh menjangkau 20 tahun..

tua ke muda? muda lg doh..hahahahah...

the years have sped,

they've flown right past.

i'm growing up, now,

but its gone too fast.

no one can know

how it feels to be me,

when i used to fall

and bump me knee.

my wings are spread,

i'm ready to fly.

its gone too fast,

im going too high.

i need some help

some inspiration,

i've never felt

so much frustration.

its scaring me

to think ahead,

i have no ideas,

i've already said.

p/s: happy birthday to my dearest sister sabrina hashim. we both shared the same date actly..

huhuhu..iloveyou

hopeless

dear bloggie,

creating the future seems to be hard enough with the weight of the past on my shoulders...

-i miss the old of u C..

kau dan aku, tak ada bezanya...

betul la apa dia kata. kalau benda yang dah lama berlaku tapi kita baru tahu sekarang sama je rasanya mcm benda tu baru berlaku. oh yes, i agreed. and this is what i felt now! selama ni aku keep blaming myself cause aku anggap semua masalah dtg drpd aku. aku anggap aku sendiri sia-siakan bahagia yg bakal muncul depan mata. aku nampak semua kekurangan ada dalam diri aku. tp sekarang...the truth was really surprised me! superbly surprised! aku percaya, sesuatu benda yang kita sorok, mesti ada sebabnya. bukan semua cerita kita perlu cerita pada org lain. mungkin untuk jaga hati org yang kita syg. mungkin juga ianya kesilapan bodoh yang tidak perlu diceritakan. atau mungkin juga kita tidak tahu cara untuk memulakan cerita itu. aku tahu mmg pedih kalau kita tahu cerita itu dari mulut orang lain. mungkin selama ni aku terlalu duduk didalam kotak fikiran aku dan sentiasa menyalahkan diri sendiri. tapi sekarang, tak lagi.. kau dan aku, tak ada bezenyeee....

sepandai2 tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga. kau dan aku tak ada bezenya. apa yang aku lakukan, kau juga lakukan. cuma ianya terlindung dr pengetahuan aku. aku tahu pasti ada sebabnya. kerana aku pernah lalui. kini aku sudah tahu. aku tak marah. cuma kecewa. kecewa kerana tidak diberi peluang untuk mencari kebahagiaan aku sendiri. dan tertanya-tanya, mengapa tidak diberi peluang. padahal kau juga melakukan perkara sama. is it fair?

p/s: mungkin kau tak tahu aku mengetahuinya. i keep it silent. and... im okey.. :) oweys love you.

lagi?

haih..sapa-sapa tolong lah ajar aku mcmcane tanak jd boros.. tlg! tlg! pokai dh ni!
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tgk punya tgk, sekali paaappp! interest detected!


korea strap skinny jeans

aduh..menusuk nusuk kalbu..(padahal last week baru pas beli high waisted jeans)
usha punya usha lagi......
teettttt.......another one!



hah! ni sesakk teross dado den..haaiihhh..
aku akan berusaha keras utk dptkan brg2 ni..hahahhaahah..
actually korea strap skinny jeans tu aku dah pau abg aku..(rase2 mcm dpt jee)
heeeeeeeee...

so guys, kat link ni byk jugak baju lawa2.. so have a look ok..

LATER :)

forever

you are my past, my present and my future
without you i could not be
and i will always be with you
although you may not be able to see
put faith in God..He will show you the way

and forever with me,

you will always stay...
AMIN.....

i call it love

do what makes you happy. be with who make you smile. laugh as much as you breath. love as long as you live.

two soul with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one..

happy holidays!

i wish for you a holiday
that’s better than your dreams
filled with peace, good will and hope
and firelight that gleams…
overflowing with holiday spirit
good food and holiday laughter
and when it’s done, we hope that you
live happily ever after!

happy holidays guys! meet up next on next semester..

best CHAPTER...

A friend...
made the story of my life
just like a beautiful butterfly
living with them is like a blessing
i couldn’t afford to lose any of them
for them i can make some sacrifice
they are one of the best chapters in my life...
thank you ayu,nadia,ain,jia,fara,mira...and others.

dgr la lagu shayne ward - breathless, untuk awak tau.. :) beware: kalau awak berjiwa techno, awak mungkin tak minat lagu ni

nnt kite download ok..

tanya sampai lebam

awak rase Moo sayang saye tak?

TIDAK! Moo syg saye sorg jee..

tanya sampai lebam

wishlist of this month!

wishlist bulan ni agak demand sikit memandang bulan ni merupakan birthday aku... weehhuuuu!! tiap2 mlm mmg asyik terbayang Dangerous Rugged kat atas tu.. haaiisshh..
buat bergadoh btol laa..hahahah.. and then sgt sgt inginkan High Waisted Skinny Jeans! i wish so..

LATER :)

buff! buff!

wweehuuuu...oleh kerana kejayaan kitorg menjayakan event Anitament "animal matters to me",
kitorg disajikan mkn mlm yg sgt...one word..'perrggghhhh...' hahahhhha.. mula la setan2 menghasut utk jd tamak mlm tu... kitorg tggu kat unisel around 7 and konvoi ramai2 gi Concord shah alam. hampir2 accident angkara jia shamsuri..hahahha.. 1st menu aku pilih satayyy!! tp kuah kacang manis nk mampus..then, gi usha2 BBQ kt luar..amek chicken wings, sausage, byk giler dan ditambah mushroom sauce. pastu try rase blueberry chrumble dgn vanilla cream. waalaaawaee...
mlm tu jugak ade surprise birthday untuk apek dgn amer.. happy birthday korg!! huhuhuhu..
acara last skali, kitorg dpt sijil and bergambar bagai nk rak ramai2.. its such a wonderful and pecious moment in my life.. as madam said: 'u get what u give..' so tak sia2 kitorg bkorban tuk jayakan event Anitament. special thanks to madam norazian abdul aziz, we love you madam!! and to all Anitament team, i love you guys!

one day...

one day i met someone who instantly stole my heart away and no matter how hard i tried i just couldn't make him stay..yess..its you... and so i decided to let him go, though it was hard to do..
i've tried so many times to love someone else.. this is the stupidest mistake i ever did in my life.
i was just too blind to see before..but one day i opened my eyes and realized you were for me..
but maybe i learned 'one day' is too late and you've slipped away but i really hope you'll come back one day.. i always find my self thinking of you.. thinking back to those old and the precious memories of ours makes me truly happy.. but at the same time, makes me cry.
wishing and hoping that one day,you and me will be together again.. so ask me if i love you,and if my love is really true and i'll tell you that you are the one who makes me laugh when i really want to cry.. and today i really miss you..and i hope you don't go too far away because i hope you'll refall in love with me....one day..

iloveyou C..

angkara Nescafe Mocha

hari ni pagi-pagi buta kul 7 aku dah bangun.. dgn muke yang boring aku capai air coke yg aku drive thru smlm kat atas meja.. smlm? smlm pon smlm laa.. ok jer rase diee.. hahahaah.. sambil termenung kat luar tingkap dgn muke yg tak puas tido..! mcm ni cerite die... dengarkan....

smlm pukul 10 mlm aku pergi rumah jia untuk amek final assignment economy. tup tap tup tap sejam jugak la lepak rumah dia. then teruss pergi print menda alah tu.. nak balik tu aku singgah petronas. disinilah silapnye..punca segalanye.. Nescafe Mocha adalah punca utamanye! ntah kenapa rase gian nk minum air ni meluap-luap. so diri aku mlm semalam di bwh pengaruh kafein yang tak berape nak kuat laa.. terdetik kat hati aku.."mlm ni boleh laa study lame sket.." konon tak ngantuk sgt la kan.. ni bkn tak ngantok sgt, tp tak boleh tido terooss..! hadooiii..gampang btol.. aku habes study kul 3 lebey.. tutup lampu. masuk tido. mate terkebil-kebil pandang siling. pusing sana pusing sini. garu sana garu sini. baca msg2 lama. tengok gamba kucing kesyangan aku, Sid. eerrghhh..tak boleh tido jugak. teringat mak ckp..'klu tak boleh tido, baca bismillah dlm hati byk2..insyaallah nnt tertido la..' Dah bace, nothing happen. terkebil2 tgk siling lg. then tgk jam jap..nk dekat pukul 6?? elok la tuu..alarm aku kul 7..hadoooii.... ade effect pulak? hahhahha.. tibe2 aku teringat cerite Star Wars. hahahha..sempat lg tuu.. aku pon dgn otomatiknye ingat balik perjalanan cerite tu. berangan2 pakai lightsaber. ntah mcmane aku tertido lak.. hahhahah.. mujarab!! hahhhhah cara yang tak dirancang.. tiba2..

lagu OH dr Girls Generation bergema buat aku terkejot giler. menglupur kejap. ade msg. MAXIS??????? bunyinya mcm ni.. 'RM2&RM0.50 has been deducted from your account for SOS top pup.' oh...shit!! aku pon nk tido balik. OMG!! tak boleh...eerrgggghhhh.. mmg pundekk la msg tuu.. aku tgk jam kul 6.45.. maknenye tak sampai sejam aku tido..haaaiihhhh... terima kaseh daun keladi maxis... alhamdullilah and thank God aku dpt jawab paper event management td.tak sia-sia aku study. tp mcm kelam kabut sket sbb aku kene tulis balik ape yg aku buat. sbb aku mmg tak biasa klu terus tulis pakai pen. aku akan buat guna pensel dlu. hahahhaah..style2 SPM en? hahhha..mampuss tak lyn...


oklah.tu aje.boringg.penat.lazy.sleepy.later. moo..here i come!