hopeless

dear bloggie,

creating the future seems to be hard enough with the weight of the past on my shoulders...

-i miss the old of u C..

kau dan aku, tak ada bezanya...

betul la apa dia kata. kalau benda yang dah lama berlaku tapi kita baru tahu sekarang sama je rasanya mcm benda tu baru berlaku. oh yes, i agreed. and this is what i felt now! selama ni aku keep blaming myself cause aku anggap semua masalah dtg drpd aku. aku anggap aku sendiri sia-siakan bahagia yg bakal muncul depan mata. aku nampak semua kekurangan ada dalam diri aku. tp sekarang...the truth was really surprised me! superbly surprised! aku percaya, sesuatu benda yang kita sorok, mesti ada sebabnya. bukan semua cerita kita perlu cerita pada org lain. mungkin untuk jaga hati org yang kita syg. mungkin juga ianya kesilapan bodoh yang tidak perlu diceritakan. atau mungkin juga kita tidak tahu cara untuk memulakan cerita itu. aku tahu mmg pedih kalau kita tahu cerita itu dari mulut orang lain. mungkin selama ni aku terlalu duduk didalam kotak fikiran aku dan sentiasa menyalahkan diri sendiri. tapi sekarang, tak lagi.. kau dan aku, tak ada bezenyeee....

sepandai2 tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga. kau dan aku tak ada bezenya. apa yang aku lakukan, kau juga lakukan. cuma ianya terlindung dr pengetahuan aku. aku tahu pasti ada sebabnya. kerana aku pernah lalui. kini aku sudah tahu. aku tak marah. cuma kecewa. kecewa kerana tidak diberi peluang untuk mencari kebahagiaan aku sendiri. dan tertanya-tanya, mengapa tidak diberi peluang. padahal kau juga melakukan perkara sama. is it fair?

p/s: mungkin kau tak tahu aku mengetahuinya. i keep it silent. and... im okey.. :) oweys love you.

lagi?

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LATER :)

forever

you are my past, my present and my future
without you i could not be
and i will always be with you
although you may not be able to see
put faith in God..He will show you the way

and forever with me,

you will always stay...
AMIN.....

i call it love

do what makes you happy. be with who make you smile. laugh as much as you breath. love as long as you live.

two soul with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one..

happy holidays!

i wish for you a holiday
that’s better than your dreams
filled with peace, good will and hope
and firelight that gleams…
overflowing with holiday spirit
good food and holiday laughter
and when it’s done, we hope that you
live happily ever after!

happy holidays guys! meet up next on next semester..

best CHAPTER...

A friend...
made the story of my life
just like a beautiful butterfly
living with them is like a blessing
i couldn’t afford to lose any of them
for them i can make some sacrifice
they are one of the best chapters in my life...
thank you ayu,nadia,ain,jia,fara,mira...and others.

dgr la lagu shayne ward - breathless, untuk awak tau.. :) beware: kalau awak berjiwa techno, awak mungkin tak minat lagu ni

nnt kite download ok..

tanya sampai lebam

awak rase Moo sayang saye tak?

TIDAK! Moo syg saye sorg jee..

tanya sampai lebam

wishlist of this month!

wishlist bulan ni agak demand sikit memandang bulan ni merupakan birthday aku... weehhuuuu!! tiap2 mlm mmg asyik terbayang Dangerous Rugged kat atas tu.. haaiisshh..
buat bergadoh btol laa..hahahah.. and then sgt sgt inginkan High Waisted Skinny Jeans! i wish so..

LATER :)

buff! buff!

wweehuuuu...oleh kerana kejayaan kitorg menjayakan event Anitament "animal matters to me",
kitorg disajikan mkn mlm yg sgt...one word..'perrggghhhh...' hahahhhha.. mula la setan2 menghasut utk jd tamak mlm tu... kitorg tggu kat unisel around 7 and konvoi ramai2 gi Concord shah alam. hampir2 accident angkara jia shamsuri..hahahha.. 1st menu aku pilih satayyy!! tp kuah kacang manis nk mampus..then, gi usha2 BBQ kt luar..amek chicken wings, sausage, byk giler dan ditambah mushroom sauce. pastu try rase blueberry chrumble dgn vanilla cream. waalaaawaee...
mlm tu jugak ade surprise birthday untuk apek dgn amer.. happy birthday korg!! huhuhuhu..
acara last skali, kitorg dpt sijil and bergambar bagai nk rak ramai2.. its such a wonderful and pecious moment in my life.. as madam said: 'u get what u give..' so tak sia2 kitorg bkorban tuk jayakan event Anitament. special thanks to madam norazian abdul aziz, we love you madam!! and to all Anitament team, i love you guys!

one day...

one day i met someone who instantly stole my heart away and no matter how hard i tried i just couldn't make him stay..yess..its you... and so i decided to let him go, though it was hard to do..
i've tried so many times to love someone else.. this is the stupidest mistake i ever did in my life.
i was just too blind to see before..but one day i opened my eyes and realized you were for me..
but maybe i learned 'one day' is too late and you've slipped away but i really hope you'll come back one day.. i always find my self thinking of you.. thinking back to those old and the precious memories of ours makes me truly happy.. but at the same time, makes me cry.
wishing and hoping that one day,you and me will be together again.. so ask me if i love you,and if my love is really true and i'll tell you that you are the one who makes me laugh when i really want to cry.. and today i really miss you..and i hope you don't go too far away because i hope you'll refall in love with me....one day..

iloveyou C..

angkara Nescafe Mocha

hari ni pagi-pagi buta kul 7 aku dah bangun.. dgn muke yang boring aku capai air coke yg aku drive thru smlm kat atas meja.. smlm? smlm pon smlm laa.. ok jer rase diee.. hahahaah.. sambil termenung kat luar tingkap dgn muke yg tak puas tido..! mcm ni cerite die... dengarkan....

smlm pukul 10 mlm aku pergi rumah jia untuk amek final assignment economy. tup tap tup tap sejam jugak la lepak rumah dia. then teruss pergi print menda alah tu.. nak balik tu aku singgah petronas. disinilah silapnye..punca segalanye.. Nescafe Mocha adalah punca utamanye! ntah kenapa rase gian nk minum air ni meluap-luap. so diri aku mlm semalam di bwh pengaruh kafein yang tak berape nak kuat laa.. terdetik kat hati aku.."mlm ni boleh laa study lame sket.." konon tak ngantuk sgt la kan.. ni bkn tak ngantok sgt, tp tak boleh tido terooss..! hadooiii..gampang btol.. aku habes study kul 3 lebey.. tutup lampu. masuk tido. mate terkebil-kebil pandang siling. pusing sana pusing sini. garu sana garu sini. baca msg2 lama. tengok gamba kucing kesyangan aku, Sid. eerrghhh..tak boleh tido jugak. teringat mak ckp..'klu tak boleh tido, baca bismillah dlm hati byk2..insyaallah nnt tertido la..' Dah bace, nothing happen. terkebil2 tgk siling lg. then tgk jam jap..nk dekat pukul 6?? elok la tuu..alarm aku kul 7..hadoooii.... ade effect pulak? hahhahha.. tibe2 aku teringat cerite Star Wars. hahahha..sempat lg tuu.. aku pon dgn otomatiknye ingat balik perjalanan cerite tu. berangan2 pakai lightsaber. ntah mcmane aku tertido lak.. hahhahah.. mujarab!! hahhhhah cara yang tak dirancang.. tiba2..

lagu OH dr Girls Generation bergema buat aku terkejot giler. menglupur kejap. ade msg. MAXIS??????? bunyinya mcm ni.. 'RM2&RM0.50 has been deducted from your account for SOS top pup.' oh...shit!! aku pon nk tido balik. OMG!! tak boleh...eerrgggghhhh.. mmg pundekk la msg tuu.. aku tgk jam kul 6.45.. maknenye tak sampai sejam aku tido..haaaiihhhh... terima kaseh daun keladi maxis... alhamdullilah and thank God aku dpt jawab paper event management td.tak sia-sia aku study. tp mcm kelam kabut sket sbb aku kene tulis balik ape yg aku buat. sbb aku mmg tak biasa klu terus tulis pakai pen. aku akan buat guna pensel dlu. hahahhaah..style2 SPM en? hahhha..mampuss tak lyn...


oklah.tu aje.boringg.penat.lazy.sleepy.later. moo..here i come!